The Greatest Gift is Love

The greatest joy that life can bring, is being a mother and to me that means everything! Since the age of 10, I was told that due to menstrual cycle irregularities I would have trouble conceiving. By the time I was in my late twenties, I watched several friends marry and have children and often wondered when my time of marriage and building a family would come. I never in a million years would have thought that I would still be single and unmarried by my mid- thirties. Growing up, I was always taught that children before marriage was a sin. However no one taught that, every woman may not enter a marriage. Does that mean she should be denied the gift of being a mother and offering her caring nurture to life's most beautiful creation? This just couldn't be what my life was summing up too.

In January of 2018, I had my very first cancer scare and that's when things became extremely difficult for me to process. My OBGYN, diagnosed me with PCOS and endometriosis. Talk about frustrated, scared and angry. Every emotion that could mentally and emotionally tackle me, did. My options were a medical procedure called a DNC and if that didn't help, hysterectomy. I felt the lowest blow to hear there were no other options for me to conceive if the DNC and Mirena didn't work. Not that adoption was an awful thing, but I yearned the experience of hearing my baby's heart beat, feeling him/her move and being able to sing and read to the baby. I talked with my mother and she reminded of the beautiful gift I was to her as she adopted me when I was two months old and she said if adoption is the choice, you can still provide a loving and caring environment to your baby as I did for you.

So I took on the choice to research my options and found information on embryo adoption. After speaking with Dawn, my eyes filled with tears of joy to finally hear that I still have a chance to experience motherhood. That is the beauty of life in my eyes! Motherhood!! I thought about how wonderful and beautiful of a relationship I have with my mother and how I would love to give this unmeasurable big ol' heart of mine to a life that was chosen just for me! The Greatest Gift for me you see, is loving my baby unconditionally.